April 23, 2020
Author - manisar
I must have had a moment of splendid clarity when I wrote this sometime in 2003-04 during my college days!
This, if absorbed and assimilated, is the key to all happiness I think. I strive for the same.
The desires in this world are not fulfilled and it is a law. Of course, the uncertainty principle binds any law within limits, but the limits of the law stated are really infinitesimal, i.e. you may find some of the desires being fulfilled or some of the people’s desires getting fulfilled but that is only a speck in a heap of dust.
Yes, this is depressing but that’s the way it is. The point is this that it requires a certain intellectual and emotional level to have real desires. Otherwise your desires are very childish which even if are satisfied will only pave the way for greater desires. And by and by as you start having greater desires, the ratio of the ones fulfilled to the ones which are not, starts falling exponentially. So, in the end when you’ll feel that now you’ve really got some desires to be fulfilled, it becomes insurmountably difficult to fulfill them.
So whether you call it a loser’s submission or whatever, the only solution for becoming free—free of anxieties, free of panics, free of pains—is to get rid of the desires, all of them. How long will you run? It’s better the soon you realize that you are going to be the loser.
That is the way it is and I don’t know why it is like that. And I don’t know any place to lodge a complaint against that.
What’s the harm if by accepting that you are only becoming happier? And what’s the shame in losing against the whole of nature? After all, you are always alone in this world and you have to strife against the whole of the world, the whole of nature.
And let me tell you, it’s not really a defeat either. Because it’s the nature’s basic desire that you should have desires. And by rejecting them, you’ve really declared your independence from the nature. And the best thing is that once you’ve rejected the desires with all your heart, the vicious circle of one desire begetting another is broken. That’s nature’s defeat!
And the other point is that, even if for a second, you accept that you are a loser and hence you leave all the desires, then you no longer remain a loser. That’s because among all the given up desires is the desire to become a winner, and with that gone, how does it matter whether you are a winner or loser? It doesn’t matter at all. And so, you are no longer a loser.
But I don’t want to impress you with all this logic and verbiage. The only thing is that desires in this world are not fulfilled and it’s not valiant but idiotic to run after them. And even if it’s not idiotic, I see no point in that.